hmm...lets see...Im really tired and in a pissy mood. Im juss sad. I dunno don't really wanna talk/write about it. But lets see...well all my friends juss got back from beach week...and they all had an amazing time...lucky them...Even if I was going to go i wouldn't have been able to.....my sister. But oh well...I keep saying theres next year but yeah thats not goin to happen only because Im going to the philippines next year. I doubt I can afford to go to the philippines and go to beach week. Yeah not going to happen. Lest see good news....well I got into the learning community at school! Thats exciting i get a suite dorm room. Nice huh? Lets juss hope it has FX-Niptuck Fox Family-Gilmore Girls Disney-MY LIFE LINE and I know theyll have fox 5 for my HOUSE hehe....oh yeah and I hope i get AC that'll sux so much if I don't  but eh o well. ALso at work I got a dollar raise....YEAHHH 7.75 and hr. pretty damn good if i do say so myself. and I also get a "blue shirt" and FREE FOOD!!! heh thats pretty kool

hmm....and me and my loose....we're doing great  so thats good! Our 2 yrs. is coming up in Aug. wow thats pretty long but i kno theres going to be a lot more of those hehe. (and yes for all of u who most know...we are def. staying together even tho im going to JMU and Im not worried because if we made it while he was at Tech JMU is going to be no problemo!) hmm....and I dunno wat else to say.

hmm...oh on monday me loose (loose articles ) Nelson and kristen went to kings dominion....SOO MUCH FUN! I actually rode the hypersonic....it was fun but the wait was too long! and lets see we literally spent 12 hours there...n my loose won me a HUGE scooby on an impossible game!! I had to carry him around all day but it was soo worth it (tnx mucho loose love ya) and OH we rode the scooby doo ride...three times...AND MY AND KRISTEN BEAT LOOSE (loose articles ) MUHAHAHA yeahh it was pretty easy. AND we posed for the picture it is the funniest picture in the entire world lol itll be posted on my yahoo photos soon lol...good times.....Then we KILLED them in laser tag (when I say we killed them i really mean they kick the shit outta us hehe) and I had my yummmy dip n dots....and nelson heymer loose (loose articles lol ok I'll stop) and I cheated the system...WE STOLE REFILLS FOR THE $3.00 DRINK I PAID FOR loose was the distraction n nelson snuck in....hehehe. and lets see....thats pretty much it about kings dominion..cept it was an awesome day

OH my 18th birthday is coming up...on July 11th so go out and get free slurpees all day at 7-11 cause its their bday as well. I'd invite everyone to my party....but im not having one.  Most philipina girls have this thing called a "debue" (sp. wayy off) but im not going to be having one. Its like the Spanish girls cinco de mayo but juss for ur 18th bday. Yeah def. not having one. I don't think I could have one w/o my nana being there so...eh happy early bday to me. Plus one of the girls I would ask to gimme my flower (long story) Rissa isn't even going to be here...her big ass (literally hehe) is going to Japan....HAVE FUN RISSA BRING ME BACK THE SHOES...WE KNOW THEY'LL FIT HEHE! all riite well im going to lay down now and read this b-a-n-g-i-n' book...yeah Im a nerd...but its kristen's fault im doing this whole stupid reading thing....GOSH FREAKIN IDIOT! hehe

***niite hoes***

Currently Playing Graduation/Itch By Vitamin C Graduation (friends forever) see related

OMG......WE GRADUATED! WAY TO GO OHS CLASS OF '05 Man....the only weird thing is I still feel like Im in school. Like it feels like any other weekend...but with a party and money  well g2g play doctor...with my babys bug bite hehe and eat

***peace hoess***

....I dunno wat to write I juss wanted to get my fingers going. I seem to always believe that people will change and I give chance after chance and yet...Im stilll at home waiting around.  I got up at like 7 am this morning and got all ready and pretty and for what....no reason at all. I dunno, i dunno. but once again here I am sitting on my ass and being upset.

I guess on a better note Im going to wash my car today...and 2m is senior check out....then my cousins are coming down from Chi-Town which I juss saw but I love them so its ok. Then Friday is graduation practice and the family lucheon thingie. Then Im going to OPs graduation for a good friend of mine. Then Sat....is my big day. It's so weird because it's like the future is here. I remember being in like elementary school and my daddi telling me I was the class of 2005 and I juss kinda looked at him. I was like dad thats so far away I will never get to be that old....lol. And now....its on Sat. SAT. It juss seems soo weird. I dunno And next month I'm turning 18.....wow. I dunno its alll so fast. When old people come up to you and say things like "You've gotten so big" or "You're growing up so fast!" You never realize how true that is. It feels like yesterday I was at metz. Or a freshman and being a senior seemed so far away. I dunno It's all exciting but at the same time scary.....cause gradutaing means we are one step closer to being in the real world.  wow....weird. But no doubt I am very excited   well hows that for an update

*JBOO*

I officially give up. Yet...Im still so sad. I never thought letting go would be this painful. But it reallly is. I guess...its in a way my fault. I dunno. It seems like its all juss been thrown away. The memories the laughs the jokes the love...everything. And it hurts so bad.  But theres nothing I can do but move on....and pray that things work out for the best...andhopefully the way I want them to work out...